Christmas always brings a pause to my life in a way because in my country, personally for me, this year came in a slow mood, but at the same time it was one of those years that rans fast with a lot of bills, challenges, wins and survival. It is December already and today is Christmas. My soul seems heavy and my heart feels tired but when I take a look back at what has happened this year, all I can see is some mistakes, wins, and some decisions that I have learnt for both in a positive and negative way.
I have learned how to exercise more patience this year because some of the things that I really planned to do failed, some came to realization, I met with some disappointments that changed my mood, at some point I got angry with myself but here I am, I always learn to forgive myself not because I want to, but, you know, I prioritize my peace of mind a lot. And this is because I have learnt not to hold on to stuff like that than holding it to mind.
And above all, I am always this grateful type of a guy because I am grateful for for the gift of life, for a happy family and togetherness, and I am grateful for the ability to do what I want to do every day because a lot of people are not here with us today.
And one of the honest questions that I once asked myself is that, when things were tight for me, did I extend an open arm? Yes, sometimes I did, and sometimes I was unable to do that because Christmas is not every day.
But one thing I like about Christmas is that it prepares me for the coming year because I have time to look back and also plan ahead, hoping that tomorrow will be better.
I might not have it all, but I always believe that the grace to be alive, healthy, and in sound mind is enough reason for me to celebrate.
Thank you for reading.
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