Sometimes I don't know how to stop ...

Since I have had the use of work, professional reason, since I was 18 years old. And also as a mom, grandmother, and housewife I learned to enjoy what I produced. And I felt guilty for resting. Sometimes I felt that way because silence confronted me with what I didn't prefer to look at.

Honestly, it's still hard for me to do nothing, not because I think resting is bad. I know it is necessary, the body needs it and the mind too. If one does not stop doing things, stress accumulates and anxiety becomes active and the mind is filled with noise due to emotional exhaustion.

I tell you why it is so hard for me to stop doing things, to work among other things, because I like what I do, it connects me, moves me and sustains me. When you're in what you love, it doesn't feel like a heavy burden, you don't want to escape from it, you're not counting.the days to disconnect. And eye, no.it means that I don't get tired, of course I'm getting married!!! ... But it doesn't weigh on me. I don't feel the desire to run away...because what I do makes me happy.

I remember as a mother when my children grew up, graduated and flew out of the maternal niche, I felt weird, because I had more time to rest and dedicate more to my husband, and on weekends to do gardening, cooking, going to the beach, in short, rest from the routine, and it's not lazy it's personal enjoyment to rest to recharge.

I also understand that some people are tired because of overwork and others because of disconnection and when there is disconnection, annoyance, boredom, resistance, the feeling of being in the wrong place appears.and that exhausts more than any working day.

Isn't it just how much do you make? But from where? From the obligation or from the desire, from the pressure or from the purpose, that difference changes everything. In fact the question is not whether you are tired?

But from what or from whom? or maybe it's hard for us to stop any personal or work day because we're where we don't want to be...

When our life is not moving forward, it is tempting to look for culprits.

Pointing fingers at others or blaming circumstances seems simpler than looking inward. It is also true that sometimes we want to heal from a place where they keep hurting us, and this is not possible or healthy.

For me, weekends are spectacular, I love turning off the mental radio, it's mandatory, because I genuinely enjoy "doing nothing" while I'm at it, I feel no guilt, no remorse!!. So taking distance is key to have perspective, but also to be able to heal. But the real change starts when we stop avoiding ourselves and take responsibility for our decisions.

Janitze.🌷