Reflection can be channelled to both the negative side that weighs down the mind with a series of regrets and the positive side that lights up the mind. Oftentimes, I engage in the positive side of it, and that occurs very often, even during my working hours...I just launch my mind into the deep sea of memories, reminiscing the good moments of my life, laughing at how I made some foolish moves, special moments with family, and reliving so many sweet thoughts.
As for the negative aspect, I do engage in it, no lies, but not often, and that is because I don't want to disturb my mind with thoughts of negative events that have happened or scenes I am expecting in the future...such as death scenes which I know will happen one day. Funny enough, most times this negative side of this helps to prepare the mind for what's to come and also helps someone to avoid making bad decisions from lessons learnt in the past.
The last time I reflected:
Like I said in the beginning, I seldom engage in moody, physical reflection; my mind does it for me while other parts of my body are engaged in different activities. Yes, it works for me like that. Also, my reflection does not just settle on the past, I take myself into the future, imagining scenes. Most times they are good scenes, and sometimes bad ones appear and anytime the bad ones appear, I can only imagine them briefly and leave quickly.
I remember a particular relationship I was in. On the night of Valentine’s Day, this lady’s line went off as early as 7 pm, and they always had electricity, which meant it was not because her phone battery died. That night, I was lost in deep, hurtful thoughts, assembling together the warning signs I had noticed earlier but ignored before that day. Music was playing in my ears, but none of it worked its magic on me, I was completely lost in thought, pondered, wondered and wandered(inwardly) but nothing positive came out.
Do you want to know how it ended that day? That is a story for another day. Lol😅
When it comes to reflecting on negative things, I shy away from it a lot, but it still comes occasionally.
A few days ago, while pressing clothes with my headphones plugged into my ears and music playing, my mind drifted away. I began to reflect on how financially comfortable I was last month, to the extent that I had already programmed everything to continue like that at least till the end of the year. I was paying for things with ease. A lot of expenses that I never planned for came up during that period, and there was always money to sort them out without thinking much about it.
But along the line everything changed.
"Why did things change?"
"The flow wasn’t supposed to stop. Why did it happen?" I wished the earnings continued. My mind ran far trying to question some happenings in this life.
After my mind returned, I smiled and still thanked God for everything because I have things I did with the money, and it wasn’t a waste. The only issue was that the flow stopped and killed my dream of becoming a millionaire within a year if it had continued. But it’s still okay, because nothing lasts forever.
Thanks for reading.
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