It's understandable that everyone processes loss differently, and it's important to take the time you need for yourself.
I'm glad to hear that you're in a better place now and have found happiness with Cathy.
Hopefully, with time, relationships with your family can heal and grow stronger.
Keep being open about your feelings and continue to communicate as best as you can.
Wishing you all the best in your new journey.

!ALIVE
!PIMP