Not too tough nor too stoic to my thinking. You are the person you are now because of past experiences, and because of that you have no tolerance for violence and brutality against those who cannot defend themselves. At least that's how I see it judging from my limited knowledge of you. I reckon you turned out alright 😉
It would be a dream to have those doors and the courtyard they lead into. The trebs would be icing on the cake 😂