Hoy solo quiero un pequeño desahogo por acá, hace 11 largos y pesados dias que mi mamita cerró sus ojos para siempre, dejandonos un vacio inmenso💔 todo fue tan rapido y repentino que me cuesta cada segundo aceptar que no está.
la tarde del 19 de Mayo recibo una llamada de mi mamá avisandome que a mi mamá la iban a llevar al hospital centrar con un dolor muy fuerte, rapidamente me fui hasta alla y desde ese momento sentí mucho miedo porque al llegar la vi muy mal 😔 tenia hipotension sumado a un dolor abdominal horrible, y en el hospital tuvieron mucho tiempo sin atenderla, ahi es donde digo que el sistema de salud es UN ASCO en este pais, que viven de apariencias porque realmente aqui nada sirve, no hay medicos de verdad, simplemente puro estudiantes, "mata sanos" como les decia mi mamá, despues de tantas carreras logramos que atendieran a mi mamá y comenzaron a ponerle algo para estabilizar su tension porque sin eso no podian ponerle mas nada
El dia avanzó, llegó la moche, una noche larga donde estuvo muy incomoda, el aire no servia, tenia calor, la camilla era incomoda, le dolia, se quejaba, no podia hacer pipi😔 le pusieron una sonda y despues de 4 soluciones con solo 1 para el dolor que de paso fue una que NO DEBIAN ponerle, aun despues de todo ese liquido mi mami siempre tuvo la sonda vacia, comenzaron a mandarle examenes y le pusieron oxigeno porque ya le costaba mucho respirar
Quisiera dar todos los detalles pero al mismo tiempo revivo cada segundo y me lleno de ire e impitencia de que siento que me la tuvieron todo el dia como jna pelotica, para al final pasarla a cuidados kntermedios y luego de 2 horas muriera por un paro respiratorio😭 fue horrible cuando me llamarpn para decirme "esta entrando en Paro" esa frase desgarró mi alma y aun resuena en mi mente junto a su cuerpo tendido en aquella camilla donde veia como se moria mi madre💔💔
Es el momento mas duro que he vivido hasta ahora y daria mi vida porque todo esto fuese un sueño, la busco en cada esquina de la casa, siento que en cualquier monento llegará, a vecda siento que todo esta normal y basta pasar por sus cenizas para ver que si esta pasando todo esto💔💔
Mi madre tenia muchos defectos, como todos, pero yo LA AMARÉ toda la vida y si de verdad existe esa vida eterna, lo unico qje pido es volverla a ver😭💔
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Today I just need to vent a little here. It has been 11 long, heavy days since my sweet mom closed her eyes forever, leaving an immense void in our lives 💔 Everything happened so fast and so suddenly that I struggle every single second to accept that she is gone.
On the afternoon of May 19th, I received a call from my mom letting me know that they were taking her to the central hospital with severe pain. I rushed over there, and from that very moment, I felt terrified because when I arrived, I saw her in terrible shape 😔 She had hypotension along with horrible abdominal pain. The hospital left her waiting for a very long time without any medical attention. That’s why I say the healthcare system in this country is DISGUSTING. They live off appearances because nothing here actually works. There are no real doctors, just pure students—"quacks" (health-killers), as my mom used to call them. After running around desperately, we finally got them to look at my mom, and they started giving her something to stabilize her blood pressure, because without that, they couldn't give her anything else.
The day went on, and night came—a long night where she was extremely uncomfortable. The air conditioning wasn't working, she was hot, the stretcher was uncomfortable, she was in pain, she was groaning, and she couldn't pee 😔 They placed a catheter, and after four IV bags with only one for the pain—which, by the way, was one they SHOULD NOT have given her—even after all that fluid, my mom's catheter bag was always empty. They started ordering tests and put her on oxygen because she was already struggling hard to breathe.
I wish I could give all the details, but at the same time, it makes me relive every single second, filling me with rage and helplessness. I feel like they just tossed her back and forth all day like a toy, only to finally transfer her to intermediate care, where she died two hours later from respiratory arrest 😭 It was horrible when they called me to say, "She is going into cardiac arrest." That phrase tore my soul apart, and it still echoes in my mind alongside the image of her body lying on that stretcher, watching my mother die 💔💔
This is the hardest moment I have ever lived through, and I would give my life for all of this to be just a dream. I look for her in every corner of the house, feeling like she will walk in at any moment. Sometimes I feel like everything is normal, but then I just have to walk past her ashes to realize that all of this is actually happening 💔💔
My mother had many flaws, like everyone else, but I will LOVE HER for the rest of my life. And if eternal life truly exists, the only thing I ask for is to see her again 😭💔