Feeling of emptiness...

Has it happened to you? And many times we don't know where it comes from, even if you have a partner, a stable job, an "orderly" life, but inside you don't feel anything, it's losing strength as a result of anxiety for pretending that you can handle everything.

You feel that if you fall, you break everything else falls apart like the house, the family, the job and there you are with that anguish disguised as strength.

We are left holding on, holding on, pretending that you can do anything, and it's not like that.

The truth is that many of us do not suffer from weakness because we suffer by self-demanding to be strong all the time.

That emptiness doesn't always come from a loss. It comes from having learned (inherited emotionally) that your value depended on supporting others and making them happy at the same time. Or to carry everything, not to bother, even though "everything is fine" you are not. For example: I learned from a very young age not to break down, cry, fail, why if you can't, then who???

This belief is misunderstood, it is called trauma and it keeps us in a state of constant stress and anxiety.

Fundamentally, holding everything without receiving help takes us to the limit and that is not seen when we look at ourselves in the mirror, it is seen in insomnia, in shortness of breath, in rage, anger 😡 content that explodes for anything.

To be strong is NOT to endure until bursting, and when it happens to us, it is essential not to abandon ourselves. to be strong is to say "I need help and feel guilty for looking for solutions. Do you know what happens, with that empty feeling? You look for others to do it, you ask for love like someone who asks for "help", you barely get by, you cancel yourself, you get full of activities, shopping, you get into networks, but inside you stay the same.

Because what you are missing is not outside, it is inside you. To think that this emptiness cannot be covered, it must be explored, healed and that emptiness is just the sign that something has not been said, felt or healed. And yes: it's scary, to look there.

But it's also the only way to really start living., and to find you because you are not lost. So, in what way can we re-edit our strength? it's about being optimistic about the future, but what happens when the future doesn't offer us enough reasons and strength to be optimistic? are we supposed to put our arms down and assume there's nothing to do? I refuse to think like that. It's not about ideal signs or conditions but doing that, which makes sense for us.

If we stop to think, when is it most necessary to have strength? when we go through adverse moments, and it is just at that moment when there does not seem to be a place to find it and that is where meaning gains strength, because when we do that which makes sense to us and which for us should be we are contributing without realizing it to reality changing in a silent but powerful way.

Janitze.🌷