I stop being a taboo, depression...

I have suffered depression, anxiety many times, and I think that on the other side of depression, it can be our best version, of course we have to seek help and therapy, always thinking about our mental and emotional health, whose evolution to heal takes place in a spiral.

I have learned to be patient and loving with my depressive processes. I say this because I have suffered it in silence and that is worse because of the shame or shame of expressing it and staying silent, even if we do not want to be like this, it is our brain that does not allow us to be better.

When we get entangled and the loop of thoughts that brings anxiety and depression to us increases.point of not being able to breathe and dialogue with our own thoughts the best thing is to pay attention to what is happening to us and say to anxiety and depression *I know you want to show me something, anxiety, I thank you but I don't need you right now, just breathe, this will pass, breathe, you're okay Janitze, you're okay, this will pass, you'll be able to face it.

How have I coped with it? Asking for support, help, understanding and explaining to my family that I want to be better, but I can't control it because it's something biological that dominates us.

Thank God antidepressants have saved my life, because I have controlled depression and anxiety that could not be removed with anything and almost ended up addicted to Alprazolam, which was no longer doing anything to me. I thought at those moments that it was my fault and that my life no longer had meaning, and it wasn't like that, it wasn't me, it was the depression that made me think about it. Really, many people have no idea how wonderful professional therapy is, with the psychiatrist and the endocrinologist to check my hormones and the right treatment to overcome the crises.

This I'm talking about is like asking an epileptic to stop and stop convulsing of his own free will or telling someone who has pneumonia to stop coughing or telling a child with a flu and ferocious infection to stop his temperature (fever) rising because it scares us.

For years I have been going to therapy with the psychiatrist and with the clinical psychologist and I have always done it accompanied by my husband, he does it as when I have been hospitalized, my beloved husband has a lot of patience with me, because antidepressants take time to take effect. Thank God for His love, commitment and shelter when I go through depression, and insomnia, anxiety about intrusive thoughts without warning, I want to do nothing and stop counting, things that lead me to think the worst.

What I can say with certainty is that half the world has a mental disorder but it seems that no one says it, they hide it in silence, obviously here, everything is perfect and beautiful,... "supposedly." What is true is that time does not come back, nor does life repeat itself. When we have depression, anxieties, it's like living on stage with different actors.

Janitze.🌷