Loneliness changes the way you think about other people so much and can almost make you forget all of the bad stuff they did to you. That friend that made you cry every other week, you might start thinking they kind of sucked, but at least they answered your calls and sometimes, when you're alone at home, your mind can edit out all of the bad moments and their toxic behavior. You forget about how miserable you became every time you had to see them, and it took you an entire day to recover just from one phone call
Sometimes I see people going back to the same exact situations they spent months working to escape, and it always seems to be because they got sick of eating or sleeping alone. That's understandable, because being lonely really, really hurts. Scientists estimate that being lonely is just as bad for you physically as being in physical pain.
But it makes me think about how we see our own bodies and how we see emotions. I'm not going to eat spoiled or rotten food just because I'm hungry. I'd rather wait until I can get fresh food, because I don't want it to make me sick or worse, die.
The difference is, unlike hunger, loneliness never goes away. It's a permanent feeling you'll be getting at certain moments of your life and you just have to learn to deal with it in a way that is not going to toxic people.
If you go back into a bad situation, you're just delaying your problems until you realize being lonely was better then you repeat. This time you're more tired and more sure that there's something wrong with you instead of thinking that the other person is the problem.
Toxic people can affect your mentality and you'll end up fighting yourself all the time, it's a skill they have, best is to identify them in your life and run away from them