This is my post for #freewriters 2761 prompt lack of supply hosted by @mariannewest
Even though we both miss fishing, this retirement thing is not all that bad. My husband enjoys his early evening pool time, I do not want to get in it this late, I got in it around the middle of the day, and I got cold every time the sun went behind a cloud.
The pool has finally got warm enough for me, and today was the perfect day for it because my energy was in lack of supply and my pain level was high. I am trying to wean myself off the pain medication, and it is not going well, but I will not give up. The pool helped, it seems to take all of the pressure I feel off of me, it is like a weight was lifted that has been pulling my lower spine apart.
Nights are the worst, I do not sleep anymore, I nap. I am up every hour, I will walk around, or the thing that helps the best is to bring my knees up to my chest, it relieves the pain, but I can not stay in that position and fall back to sleep. I know I am not supposed to take it, but sometimes I give up and take a dropper of the oil with THC in it. I figure that is better than taking a pain pill. I just hope my doctor does not drug test me this next time I see her. I have only given up and done this a couple of times, for the most part, I suffer through it.
This morning was weird. At 5am I wanted to get more sleep, but could not. I have TV earphones, so my husband does not hear it, and I wake him. Since I was tired but could not fall asleep, I put them on but did not turn the TV on. I can listen to it without the TV being on, which is strange. I was listening to a show called Who Do You Think You Are, which is about someone, usually a celebrity, looking up their family history.
The show was featuring a woman, I am not sure who she was. I fell asleep with the show talking in my ears, and I was dreaming of the places this woman was going to, but I could still hear the show. I know I was dreaming because my husband woke me at 6. In the dream, I was in an old town, and the show was talking about the old buildings in this town. I could see the buildings that they were talking about in my dream. I woke with the weirdest feeling, like I was there with her. It still puzzles me how I could be listening to a TV show and dreaming at the same time.
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