They say, we never know the value of what we have until we lose them and it's true for many instances and life's situations. Even as close as not appreciating yourself until you lose a part and you realize how amazing you've been then you begin to appreciate what's left, you don't want that so self-love is always a kind of priority learnt.
Life can be so unpredictable and full of uncertainties but we always hope that we'd have more peaceful days away from troubles. But a good number of times, I've wondered how the blind who once saw clearly feel. A few of them I've heard about, they got blind from birth but a lot of others got into accident and lost their sight.
I remember having a conversation with my brother when the thought crossed my mind, "How are these people able to continue life with no vision?" I actually pictured myself being blind in the house I am so familiar with and the thought that it'd be too dark to bear, I'm one of those people who can not stay for too long in the dark.
When the eyes lose it's sight, there is darkness. A darkness that can not be put out with light of any form. Losing eye sight is missing your steps, hearing sounds but can't tell who or what's making the sound, not aware of what is happening in the light, everything is just dark and deep away from what should be seen but can't.
Now, I'm made to picture a scenario where I wake up in a supposed bright morning but all I see is a night so dark with no images in sight or reflection seen, voices are heard but I can't see whose voice I hear. It would definitely be a nightmare I'd want to wake up from for the first few minutes I'll be awake, I might even sleep back to wake again.
On the realization that I have lost my sight after a great show of disbelief, I would break down in tears for the things I'll miss my eyes for. They are so many and even if I would try to name them, I know I'm still not appreciating my sight enough right now. My eyes are a great asset for me and I can't go even a second without it except asleep.
There are so many things I'll miss most should I lose my sight overnight. From no longer seeing the faces of my family and friends to missing out on my favourite TV shows and movies. I would also miss my everyday independent activities like engaging on Hive, helping out with house chores, I'll also miss walking on my familiar places freely.
But one thing I'll miss most before all these is, not expressing myself in the ways I know how to. From my fashion to self confidence, I'll miss being whole and having no fear of how people will think of me. Being blind is a liability even to the person who loves you most, it's hard to not have a mindset change when it really happens.
I'll miss having control over my being as I would need to rely on help to get a lot of things about me done. I'm not one with a great confidence and I think that confidence will drop to almost zero if such should happen to me. So before anything else, I would miss who I am before it happened. Though I know I don't have to change after such.
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