It was really overwhelming for me not to know what was going on. If I ate something, my heart would race like a horse at the racetrack. If I made a sudden movement in my head, my heart wanted to jump out of my chest. If I was quietly watching a movie, my heart would suddenly dance in disarray, as if it wanted to dance to the horrible rhythm of some crude reggaeton song.
Those were very difficult weeks, my heart would race for almost anything, almost without warning. And if you speed up your heart, your breathing speeds up, and vice versa. They were moments of great tension and even more without understanding what was happening.
I went to many doctors, some said I was hypertensive, others that I was developing diabetes, others that I was suffering from heart disease. I knew it was nothing like that, I don't know how but I knew.
That happened in the middle of the covid pandemic. Now I find it almost unbelievable that I was treated in several “health centers” and in none of them I was tested, surely I had that thing in my body making so many almost inexplicable disasters.
In desperation, I turned to an alternative therapy, homeopathy, to be exact. According to the diagnosis I was offered I had thyroid problems..... Oh... At least that explained a lot, it all made sense, I thought.
I started with the “harmless homeopathic” treatment based on drops made, presumably, from plant and mineral extracts.
The first day I felt perfectly calm, the second day the discomfort returned, my mind was totally clouded, I knew my blood pressure was sky high, I took an emergency pill to regulate this. I went to complain to the doctor and he said he did not understand what had happened. I remember that day I just wanted to sleep and drink water, lots of water, I felt dry.
I bought a tender coconut to drink its water and I went to rest, I slept many hours, more than twelve and I only woke up to drink water and I kept on sleeping.
I woke up feeling fine and of course I did not take those drops again. I was afraid that at any moment my heart or my blood pressure would go out of control, as that was a frequent occurrence.
By my own decision, I started a diet based only on boiled vegetables, raw salads, coconut water, filtered water and purple onion infusion, that infusion calmed me down very fast.
Even so, my body shook a couple of times more, but I no longer felt it in my heart but in my head, veins throbbing hard in my temples. It was a very difficult few weeks.
When my body finally stopped shaking so violently, I was left with a knot in my head along with other symptoms, such as feeling my head detached from my body, strong dizziness, fear of life, of people, of noise, of everything. Horrible, horrible, horrible...
As a consequence of all this, there was a tension in my cervical spine, which I have treated with traumatologists and physiatrists, who agree that what I have cannot be healed, I can only alleviate the symptoms with therapies, according to them.
Living with constant pain is sometimes depressing, no painkiller can calm it down. In my case it is hard to stand or sit, I get the most relief from lying down, it is as if I cannot hold my head up. I can't go for a run, even though I often want to run.
Conventional medicine tells me that there is no cure for this, that possibly the best remedy is an operation, but I will not operate on that part of my body, not even if they give me the resources with the best luxuries and “best doctors”. Oh, hell, it is my spine that is compromised, the support of my body, and also my head, where my brain is, which commands everything.
I have visited conventional medicine doctors to treat this cervical spine problem, but I have also gone to magnet therapies, ozone injection therapy, still without positive results for me. Yes I have improved compared to how I was when all this started, but I really want to be well, to feel my body light, free of torture, free of those barbed wires that bind my head.
One hope
Just last week Tuesday I went to my first session with a chiropractor. It took me a while to make the decision. When I started looking into this I saw a lot of videos of chiropractors whose methods seem pretty rough and it's something that can be dangerous.
A friend helped me in my search and I got the chiropractor who gave me that confidence, although I do not deny that on the way to the appointment I almost regretted it. Then, as I talked with the healer and explained my case, the confidence was even greater and being calmer I lay down on the table. I was given a strong massage on tension points, I felt the knots. After having kneaded my body, I heard the thundering of some vertebrae.
The healer indicated that I needed about 5 or 6 sessions. Of all the chiropractors I got in Caracas, he is the most expensive, but he was the one who gave me confidence, first by his way of exposing himself in the networks and secondly by the testimonies of some of his patients.
This condition has taught me to have more patience, it is that many times I have to go slower and take care of some postures so that the discomfort does not knock me down, as it has done many times. Also to be a little more empathetic in some situations, no one is in your body, no one knows how you feel and although they see you so complete on the outside they have no idea of your internal struggles.
Take care of yourself, since no one can do it better than you, don't force your body when you really can't because it is the only vehicle that will accompany you all your life and it deserves respect and care.
