I forced myself to be active yesterday. It wasn't easy. My birthday is coming up, and it will be the first time in years that I won't be are to share it with Lily. And that's weighing on me.
So I leaned into work. Or fun work. Ellie and I prepared pickled Chili. Two kinds - one with pineapple and one with rosemary and laurel. In 2 months we'll be able to enjoy them. Ellie usually doesn't help much in the kitchen, but I had some things she could do easily, and she did happily.
I'm very glad that she's with me in these darker times. I know it's part of the whole being a couple deal, but I appreciate it a lot. Every day. It would be worse having to face it without her.
I know I'm not fun to be around these days. Nor to read, for that matter. But better times will come. I'm learning how to deal with all those emotions in a healthy way, focusing a lot on my personal growth. When Lily is back, she'll benefit from that.
I watched the Germany - Curacao game. It was fun to watch, and I'm happy that Curacao made a goal. My favorite meme is the one stating that Curacao is already at the level of Brazil - they, too, lost 7-1 against the German team back in 2014.
I hope I'll catch up with the reports today, so I won't be writing about Yesterday anymore. Thank you for reading!
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