Oh dear, I can imagine how tough it's been for you these past few months you been laid off work, and with the part-time job ending along the way, makes it even tougher.

With all that's going around you, it's just natural to feel that way. Although you've not been able to create those YouTube videos, you're still doing great here on Hive. At least, you're making an impact and contributing to the blockchain, while earning some reward, though little. But it's all good. With time, you'd grow.

I hope everything works out well for you and you get another job even before the two weeks elapse.
!HUG
!BBH