And this leads me to the question: Is this really what I have wanted to do with my life?
I think id asked this question alot to myself too. And my answer is NO. Sometimes, we do what we do because we have to make a means to an end. I know we're fortunate to be able to get such job, but im still hoping we'd get to do what we truly want in the future. And we will. Wishing you all the best :)
Thank you so much. It is so difficult because we don’t always have the luxury to choose what we want to do with our lives. In academia where I live you are employed as a lecturer meaning you will mainly give classes. But you are expected to do research as well but you are not paid for that part. So finding time is difficult. And I aim for research as this is where my passion is. But to be able to do research you need to be an employed lecturer. Struggles! Thanks again.