You are in my prayers that you find and are reunited with Lilly soon.
We often overlook what we are already blessed with as we sometimes strive for more. It was not until my health declined and forced into retirement that I started to find contentment in what I had. Forced me to slow down and look around. To appreciate more. Sounds like you are on the right track.
I ordered and received a copy of Marcus Aurellius's Meditations the other day. It makes for a nice start too the day reading one or two of them.