It is evident that you have reflected deeply on your feelings and experiences, and that is already an important step.
It is not easy to face these emotions or put them into words as clear as you have.
However, I want to remind you that our perceptions of ourselves and our circumstances do not always reflect reality.
Just because you feel disconnected or undesirable doesn't mean it's true, let alone that it's a permanent state.
Your passions, your way of thinking, and your authenticity are qualities that make you unique, and while it may sometimes seem difficult to find someone who shares your values and vision, that doesn't mean they don't exist.
Genuine connections often come unexpectedly, especially when we allow ourselves to be open to them.
Remember that you are not alone on this path, and that there are always possibilities for change and growth.
Although you may feel trapped in this perspective now, life has a way of surprising us when we least expect it.

!BBH
!HUG