So... the 12 weeks challange have passed. it felt like a blink! i started the program with a very ambitious, and overall big wills and wishes.
I didn't really utilize the routine it provide to me. i treated it like a basic weekly check-up, and even then i don't think i reminded myself enough of my end goal, of why i started it in the first place. of why i need to do this. of why this is important.
It gave me a structure to follow. something i wasn't really used to, but hopefully am learning to work with. and it gave me a new start, each week. so i didn't dwell on what i havent done for far too long. just enough to keep myself back up and just try again. at week 8-ish, i think i lost that confidence that i could do this in the span time i set myself. it felt so far, and so out of reach. there's no way to work, i thought. and when that thought settled, it's a bit difficult convincing myself to do my best either way.
i'd like to think, there's also a lot of things that made me think that i've grown a bit in 12 weeks. less bad days, less negative thoughts, less so harsh, making myself log all the things i've done so i have concrete proof that there's progress even though it's small and minute. this, with journaling and runs, i think helped me a lot. goals and that aside, i'm really glad. i believe i'll manage!:)
Terracore
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