Okay, I know we have these big prayers, but do you talk to God about the little things?
Today in Bible study, my pastor was talking about how she lost her glasses the other day and was like, Holy Spirit, can you help me find my glasses?
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He told her where it was, literally led her to it. And I thought about how I used to be so against asking God for little things. I felt like he didn't care, like he wastes his time on me. And I realized it stemmed from being afraid of rejection.
The pain of disappointment, abandonment issues, the list goes on and on. Little things like, God, can you remind me of something? Or can you help me pick out my outfit today? I felt like my request wasn't important enough to God.
God, I can't have bigger things to worry about. Do you know how many things God's doing at one time, right?
Because of the pain rejection, I became extremely, overly independent. And he's breaking me out of it now.
But the Bible says, cast all your cares on him. Not some of them, not the big cares, instead of the little cares. All your cares on him, because he cares for you. I would tell myself things like, nobody cares enough to actually help you.
Why would people actually take time out of their day to do this for you? What's in it for them?
Anything to justify my reasoning for figuring it all out on my own. And not only did it leave me feeling extremely stressed all the time, but it created a lot less room for God to show me how much he loved me and cared for me in little things in the daily life.
Because we always say in relationships, it's the little things that matter too.
I was robbing God of the opportunity to be my husband before he was my God. The opportunity to just be the bride of Christ before I'm his servant and his child.
So let me break the back of religion and let you know that God cares about what you care about, but you'll never fully be able to extend his love until you first receive his love.
And that starts with making yourself vulnerable enough to receive what he has to offer.
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