I had already had a ridiculous number of disagreements over the last week. I can’t remember the details of what we were arguing about though, but it was related to whether I’d paid a small bill yet. At one point I stopped argument.
When I’m right, I have a strong desire to be defend my position and be the one that was correct. I have destroyed many relationships not just romantic ones, acting as if I am right. With my past relationships as examples, there has always been this passion and burden for me to be right.
I have usually found that just because you’re right doesn’t mean that you will have peace. I usually go through this conundrum. Many times I’ve found that winning an argument is less worth it than losing an argument. The party on the other side will leave and you will still hold all of the correct facts, as if they owe you anything for being right.
Nowadays before I say anything I will ask myself whether it will matter when I'm going to bed? Usually the answer is no and the argument dissipates at that moment.I have also come to a very deep realization that a clear mind is one of the many gifts that I don’t take seriously enough. If you want to be an active thinker, you cannot lose. Every time you go to speak, you have the ability and the chance to make a decision. The choice you make will determine whether your life will be a colorful one with peace of mind or not. When I was young, I didn't see the value of peace but when you mature you realize that somethings a worth more than money and winning.